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Sunday, August 03, 2008 Well it's been forever since I last blogged. I figure I mine as well give an update on things even though there's not much to update on.I'm constantly getting asked by EVERYONE how married life is...To be honest, it's the same as before. The difference is a piece of paper stating we're married. I've officially taken my husbands last name...or actually hyphenated it with my maiden name. That and we're looking at having our own house by March next year. That's a scary thing for me, but yet something I've always wanted. I want my own life with M, but leaving the only thing I've known for 26 years is extremely scary for me. I'm going to take it one day at a time, and hopefully not break down because of it all. M and I had our first major fight...and I mean major. It honestly took my mother stepping in slightly to make us realize the error of our ways. M is close with his family, especially his brother. I've never experienced that, it's always just been me and only me. I'm envious of him having a sibling, however I don't always understand the bond. Then there's his side of it where he doesn't know what it's like to be utterly alone. The fight was over me not wanting to cancel plans that we had for months with my mom and Walrus, and him wanting to go over to his brother's. Mind you we didn't get invited until the night before we were suppose to go to dinner. You all know about the issues I've had with Kat, and how I feel about it. I am trying my best to forgive and move on, but being stabbed in the back a week before my wedding was a bit to much for me. So I wasn't about to cancel plans that I had for months just to go somewhere and feel left out and used. Instead that weekend M and I went on with out plans with my mom and Walrus (thank goddess for him) and then I proceeded to not only get sick off of the food, but the alcohol I drank. Mind you I had one STRONG drink and a shot of tequila.....never do a shot of tequila I'm telling you. I spent an hour in a bathroom puking and wanting to die....all of which happened at a Drag Queen show/Gay Bar. The show was great, but not nearly as good as the one from the Boom. I spent the whole night apologizing to M because I felt so bad for everything. My co-worker who went out with us and proceeded to help me get myself drunk as hell, thought she lost my friendship. Which she didn't. Carol is a great girl, and omg do I have stories to tell you about her!! I wish I could help her with her addiction. As Athena once told me, you're brought into peoples lives for a reason, and their brought into yours for a reason. I hope to find out what that reason is!! These last few weeks I've been sick as a dog after every meal I eat. It never fails, I get sick to my stomach and want to puke. That part has actually been going on for a month...and NO I'm not pregnant. This last week I got dizzy almost daily and even a couple times during the day. Today when getting my nails done the smell that I normally like from the acrylic (yes I'm strange)made me want to throw up. I have no damn clue what's going on with me, but I'm sending a message to my doctor tomorrow. Hopefully we'll find out what's wrong with me soon...I'm tired of feeling this way. J was here for her birthday, and is going back up to school next week. She's getting her own apartment up there. I'm so glad that she's growing up and venturing out on her own. I'm hoping this is a beginning of good things for her. Well that's pretty much my life these last few months. Oh I also finished my first session of classes and am now on my second. Right now I just want to get away from it all and relax. I want to feel normal, and not sick daily. Most of all I just want to be happy! Labels: Update |
About Myself
I'm a newlywed who got married on March 15,2008.
I'm currently living at home with my mother, husband,
2 dogs, 3 cats, and 5 tortises. We're saving up for
our first how which we'll hopefully buy soon. I'd
love to start our family, but that like everything
comes in it's own time.
I recently lost my father, and am dealing with his
death the best way I know how. Surrounding myself
with the people I love, and enjoying life like he
would have wanted me to.