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Thursday, March 15, 2007 I'm pretty fucking bummed out! My entire plans this weekend for wedding stuff got canceled. My coordinator couldn't make the meeting at the venue. Bri my niece has a baseball game so she can't go, and her mom my matron of honor Kat would have to leave early to be at her daughter's (Bri) softball game. Not to mention the manager who takes the measurements won't be in at the bridal salon. FUCK!! Then my poor witchy friend Maeve got sick as a dog. I was looking forward to drunken tarot card readings. My maid of honor J was even going to come with me...as well as M.Then to add more salt to my wound there's massive drama at work. Something happened that ended up making me look somewhat like a liar. That is something I don't take lightly and have been extrememly depressed all day. After talking to people about it they have all told me to relax about it and not to woory. However that doesn't help me with feeling any better. Just a summary of what happened is the girl who got the position I should have gotten (twice now) originally told me she failed the spanish test they gave her. Today I found out that on 8/10/06 she passed it. I don't know why she would have lied to me about it. I am however suspicious about it all. Reason why: I was told in July when I was hired (not my start date) that I didn't get the position because I didn't speak spanish and the girl who got it does. I actually started on the 7th of August and so I'm in a complete quandry as to what truly happened...however life goes on and I'm going to do my best not to dwell. Other reasons why I'm depressed....I need a new car and can't get one. I just straight forward can't afford one. M and I are looking at getting the Dodge Nitro in hopefully a few months. This all depends on me getting at least a part time position and him a position as well. That and my maid of honor J got a new car today. I'm extremely jealous of her. She seems to always get things before me and I'm just jealous. She's the only type of sibling rivelry I've ever experianced. I should be happy for her but to be honest, I'm bitter. By the way M has tried to point out that I'll be getting married, getting a house, and a better car...this hasn't helped as much as you think it could. I'm just a bitter bitch right now! The good news this week...Compliance from Kaiser is investigating my claim as well as HR against my supervisor. M has an interview on Tues with Kaiser for a position that should pay very well. Me I'm hoping the union comes through and can get me either out of the dept I work at or a part time position. Can someone please send some good thoughts and energy my way to hopefully get me out of the shit hole I've fallen into and can't get myself out of at the moment. Next week will hopefully be better.....I'll be off to mammoth with M, J and my soon to be family. I need time away! |
About Myself
I'm a newlywed who got married on March 15,2008.
I'm currently living at home with my mother, husband,
2 dogs, 3 cats, and 5 tortises. We're saving up for
our first how which we'll hopefully buy soon. I'd
love to start our family, but that like everything
comes in it's own time.
I recently lost my father, and am dealing with his
death the best way I know how. Surrounding myself
with the people I love, and enjoying life like he
would have wanted me to.