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Monday, September 11, 2006 Normality: The State or Fact of Being Normal......Yeah well we all know that I'm not normal in any sense of the word. However can I just say how nice it is to finally feel emotionally sound and not a fucking psycho when it comes to me taking birth control.Every time I have had my depo shot for about 2-4 weeks after I am this emotional wreck, crying at the drop of a hat. I don't feel human, and goddess forbid M say anything that could possibly offend, or hurt me I'm a mess for hours and once in a while days. However about 3 weeks ago I was tested for polycystic ovary syndrome. So I had a lot of blood work ran to see if it or something else was causing my lack of weight loss, very high blood pressure(which I've never had even 100lbs heavier) and a heart rate that was so high it scared myself as well as my trainer when we couldn't get it to go down for about 20mins. The tests came back a week ago Wed. and tests show that if I do have polycystic ovary syndrome it's in the very early stages. Everything else is normal. My cholesterol is amazing 120, and no sign of diabeties. With that said though they are now treating me for polycystic ovary syndrome as well as insulin resistance. They're treating me with Metformin. I have to admitt that I'm not one who likes taking pills, I hate it in fact. I've taken everything for depression, weightloss, vitamins, etc. I really dislike pills! When it comes to this one though I can feel the effects and everyone around me can see them. I haven't had any emotional issues, I have so much energy it's crazy...even after school, work, and gym I'm still up and running. I feel tired but not exhausted per my usual. It's wonderful to feel normal again. Being that's it still so soon we're waiting to see what the actual results are going to be. So far it's only feeling good. Hopefully the weight will follow shortly. Fuck I have a wedding dress I have to fit into and 2-4 surgeries I need to have minimum of 8 months before the wedding. On the wedding front....We have the dress, veil, necklace, location, and patrially my groom's outfit. We're going to a tux shop this weeked to see if we can find the rest of his, and a place to rent kilts for his groomsmen. We're also going to a florist to get a rough estimate on the cost of flowers there. I wanted to work with Weddingflowers4less.com however....the didn't respond to the 2 e-mails I wrote them, and they're only open M-Th. I'm sorry but that doesn't bode well in my opinion. I can't afford to take off of work and neither can M so sorry they just lost my business. I found a few bridesmaid dresses as well as flowergirl dresses I love. Now I just have to see if my 2 bridesmaids like them. My biggest concern is my sister in law affording not only her dress but B's my niece. I don't want them spending a ton of money on a dress. I will say though I've picked dresses they both can wear again...the perfect little black dress. On the school front...I love my classes! My human sexuality class is fucking hillarious and my teacher knows me by name and looks for me whenever she poses questions to the class. It's gotten so bad that if I'm hiding from her she'll say "C I know you're here, what's the answer?!?" I know a few people in the class have pointed to me when I answer the question under my breath. I just am curious as to what they think about me....."Fucking know it all I am!!!" Especially about tha subject hehehe! My other classes are pretty good! I'm hating the fact that I have to actually go and do outside activities to get a decent grade in the class however I'll bite the damn bullet just to make sure my grade stays acceptable to my standards. |
About Myself
I'm a newlywed who got married on March 15,2008.
I'm currently living at home with my mother, husband,
2 dogs, 3 cats, and 5 tortises. We're saving up for
our first how which we'll hopefully buy soon. I'd
love to start our family, but that like everything
comes in it's own time.
I recently lost my father, and am dealing with his
death the best way I know how. Surrounding myself
with the people I love, and enjoying life like he
would have wanted me to.