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Thursday, September 29, 2005 I swear this last week has just about kicked my ass. I have not been sleeping at all lately. My dreams are very vivid, and violent. I don't exactly know why I have had such restless sleep as of lately. I'll come home from work almost every day and just be so spent that I can barely move. It's gotten so bad that my whole body is aking, and I just want to roll over and die. Not to mention my hormones are fucking insane right now. Part of that is due to the weightloss, and me not being able to get to the doctor to get my depo' shot. It's not like I'm screwing around with anyone right now anyway!!!I have a feeling that the Santa Ana winds, along with the heat, and my hormones is what is causing me to feel like total and utter shit. My screwy hormones have made me so damn emotional this week it's insane. The littlest things are getting to me. The good thing though is that I'm getting all my shit done, and some of it earlier than planned. I'm just glad that things are moving along swimmingly. Minus going to the gym!!! I have seriously put it on the back burner for the last few weeks. It seems like no matter what I do something ends up coming up at the end of the day. Grocery shopping, returning clothing, picking my mom up from work because she's sick, etc. etc. etc. I'm just waiting for this week, month, and year to be over and done with. According to Chem's "brother" he gets back this coming month, and to be honest I can't wait to talk to him. He's all that's on my mind and I just want to see him again. I've made plans to see him in February (I think I've said this before) and I'm just hoping he's still in the country when that time comes. My mom is also having surgery on the 19th of October. She's finally getting her damn collar bone repaired. It's going to be one hell of a surgery though. They're putting a huge metal rod wher the collar bone once was and then they're doing a bone graft from her hip. Hopefully from her hip anyway. If not from there it will be cadaver bone. She's actually looking forward to the surgery and being out of pain once all is said and done. The part she's not looking forward to is the pain from the surgery it self and the recovery time. They've told her it can take 6 weeks to 3 months for her to heal and be back at work. Now if you know my mom, she isn't to happy with that at all. She's a work-a-holic and places so much worth on money it's scary. However I can't blame her for worrying. You can't live in this world without money, and you deffiently can't live in CA without it. She'll get through it though just fine. |
About Myself
I'm a newlywed who got married on March 15,2008.
I'm currently living at home with my mother, husband,
2 dogs, 3 cats, and 5 tortises. We're saving up for
our first how which we'll hopefully buy soon. I'd
love to start our family, but that like everything
comes in it's own time.
I recently lost my father, and am dealing with his
death the best way I know how. Surrounding myself
with the people I love, and enjoying life like he
would have wanted me to.